Reply To: Procrastination
Thank you so much, Cynthia! I think you've hit the nail on the head when you said,
IF I AM SUCCESSFUL
MY FAMILY WITH RESENT ME—-PEOPLE WILL JUDGE ME
PEOPLE WILL EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM ME—I WON'T HAVE ANY TIME TO RELAX—I WILL HAVE TOO MANY RESPONSIBILITIES—PEOPLE WILL SEE ME AS A WORKAHOLIC— I WILL BE LONELY—I WILL BE SEEN AS SELF SERVING– MY FRIENDS WILL BE JEALOUS– I WILL BECOME OUT OF TOUCH WITH MY AUTHENTIC SELF—- I CAN NOT BE MORE SUCCESSFUL THEN MY FATHER
I LACK FOCUS TO FOLLOW THROUGH AND SUCCEED—I NEED TO STRUGGLE
How did you get into my head!
It is truly my own ego, and comparing my very worst with other people's very best. Now, what to do about it? I see that I continue to look for outward fixes, when it's the inner core of me that if not accepted by me.
I just don't know what to think about, nor do I have an incident to cling to during the PSTEC Click Track. So by the time it's over, all I've done is clicked with my mind wandering randomly — include to “what's for dinner?”