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thanks paul.

yes. the fears are related to end up being a pushover/loser.

most of my time in grade school and high school i was bullied and called names.

the weird thing is that in grade school i liked that, i got pleasure from being beaten. i think is this masochistic behavior that is not enterely gone.

at late highschool i reversed it and i started to become the bully as a coping mechanism.

i feel i have some issues with power and being powerless.

also in my sexual relationships with women i always have to be highly dominant while women are submissive to get pleasure from it. it cannot be another way