Reply To: OCD


    thanks paul.

    yes. the fears are related to end up being a pushover/loser.

    most of my time in grade school and high school i was bullied and called names.

    the weird thing is that in grade school i liked that, i got pleasure from being beaten. i think is this masochistic behavior that is not enterely gone.

    at late highschool i reversed it and i started to become the bully as a coping mechanism.

    i feel i have some issues with power and being powerless.

    also in my sexual relationships with women i always have to be highly dominant while women are submissive to get pleasure from it. it cannot be another way