Reply To: PSTEC for suicidality & bipolar
I just realized that feeling like “this struggle is just me and not circumstances” is a win. It feels like I make a big deal out of everything… we need a probably need a new furnace & 2 sets of braces- that is normally not the end of the world. The fact that I can see that it's going to be okay and that it's is unnecessary to get worked up about a huge improvement.
At first, it felt like I was just being hard on myself for being upset about it. That stinks. But the reality that it's an option to not be upset and just trust God & my husband that “everything will work out” is a big deal. Even if I haven't fully embraced that option.
Feeling very blue and going to embrace that, that is okay by doing an unusual positive based on my deep-seated truth, scripture.
“Jesus wept, It's okay to feel big emotions.” Usually I won't used wept in a positive. But I'll give it a try.