Reply To: My ultimate fear: rejection
Peter's suggestion of the Accelerator is always a good one.
Also, ask yourself a couple questions and see what comes up for you…
- Who are you feeling hurt from? The girl that took your place or Michael… or someone else… what about the teacher?
- What part of the memory is most intense… her taking your place or Michael not acknowledging you or something else?
- Do you feel any anger that you are not willing to acknowledge?
- Are there any other memories or “scenes” that come to mind that conjure some of the same thoughts and feelings… before or after that?
[/list]The memory with Michael and the girl may have more than one component of the memory that you might try CT'ing separately. Also, as you have seen, there may be multiple emotions and you might have to CT them separately as well.
With such a pivotal memory, you may have to sort it into pieces first … you know, divide and conquer kind of thing.
Also, look for other memories that are “supporting” that one as well. Sometimes you have to deconstruct more than one memory.
Give that a try.
If you feel completely stuck on it and cannot go further, you may just need someone to help guide you on this memory/issue and it would be well worth the investment … an investment in you. Check the PSTEC Registry if you need that type of help.